Sunday, 18 February 2007

I love the nickname's
everyone uses for their children and spouses – very interesting and
creative names.  So I'm trying to come up with something for my son.

Until then…

I
knew he wasn't feeling quite himself today.  Usually hubby and I take
turns going to church if he's not well.  This morning was my turn to
go.  But I just didn't feel peaceful about that and hubby gave me
freedom of choice about it.  (We've been in the ER twice in the past 2
weeks with my son, he hasn't been sleeping all night, and I work
full-time.)

Sure enough we had
seizure # 7 of the past 10 days.  Another phone call to the doctor
tomorrow.  We've increased his meds twice during the past 2 weeks. 
Should not still be having breakthrough seizures.

Very bothersome!

We're
going to a specialist on the 26th.  I'm very skeptical that they can
really tell us anything new.  I know God can give them wisdom from
above, though.  I just hope it's not dependent on MY faith.  It is
really lacking that we can/will find a rhyme or reason for these
seizures. 

It's a beautiful day,
though pretty cool again for this Southern girl.  I'd love to re-pot
some of my outdoors plants, but it's a little early yet.  So I guess
I'll wait awhile.

Here's my boy on a
much better day in  December. 

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Here's his list of
challenges:

hydrocephalus,
epilepsy, cerebral palsy, asthma, GERD, delayed gastric emptying,
various eye diagnoses, developmental delays, non-verbal (for the most
part – he can say a few words with great meaning - "more", "hello",
"Ma", "wuv", and his latest accomplishment "hah-ay-ooo-uh"
{hallelujah}), and non-mobile.

Here's
what I think about him:

He's the
joy of my heart and love of my life, second only to my hubby. 
We adopted him at 18 months old.  Next Thursday will be the 5th
anniversary of his "Gotcha Day". 

Here's what I believe about being in this trial:

There is a reason.  Some other doctors and nurses
must need to meet my boy.  Right now, only beauty is helping me stay
balanced – beauty in God's word, in God's nature, in the pics and
stories on some other's blogs.  Those things are helping.

And I am grateful.

Alesha

Saturday, 17 February 2007

Just a quiet day with my
boys. 

It was really cold here
(for the South), so we stayed cozy in the house all day. 

Remember in the 80's when buttons were all the
rage?  My hubby loved them – he's not a very outspoken person, but he
could speak his mind by wearing buttons. 

A week before Valentine's Day, he and my son were
out of town for one of my son's doctor's appointments and they dropped
in a large bookstore.  Guess what he found!  And guess what I received
every morning for a week!

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Aren't they cute? 

I am so loved.

And
blessed.

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Praying for all to have a blessed Sunday,

Alesha

Friday, 16 February 2007



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Don't you just love gerber daisies?  I think
they are very friendly flowers. 

My hubby brought these home on Valentine's Day.  I love that
they have to have little plastic sheaths for their slender stems to hold
up those beautiful huge blossoms.  It seems so self-sacrificing of them
to blossom so beautifully.  Hmmm…

Are there times you feel if you don't take a few moments just
to drink in something beautiful your heart will just wither and dry up? 

God's creation holds so
many beauties for us.  I am guilty of not taking enough time to stop and
notice.  It's as if all at once I realize I'm starving for beauty.

I want to pay attention.  I don't want to miss
the beauty.  I need the beauty.  It feeds my soul.

God's Word holds many beauties.

Zephaniah
3: 19- 20

Behold, at that time I will undo all
that afflict thee: and I will save her that halteth, and gather her that
was driven out; and I will get them praise and fame in every land where
they have been put to shame. 

At that
time will I bring you again, even in the time that I gather you: for I
will make you a name and a praise among all people of the earth, when I
turn back your captivity before your eyes, saith the LORD.

Isn't that
pretty?  Doesn't that just make your heart well up with gratitude for
the loveliness of it?

So many things He has given to make our lives
beautiful.  Let's make the time to stop and take them in, let them
linger awhile in the dark corners of our heart, until they begin to
light us up from the inside out. 

His beauty –
shining from us. 

 Hmmm…allowing His sheath of the Holy Spirit
to hold our stems straight while we sacrifice ourselves to show forth
His beauty in the blossoms of our life.

Friend, blossom
and shine for Him today!

Alesha 

Thursday, 15 February 2007

Isn't it amazing how non-Christians react when they are faced with
their own mortality?

A co-worker today was told of a relative's
diagnosis with a possibly-contagious disease.  Immediately she panicked
as she thought of her herself and her own children who had been in
contact with the relative.  Her terror was palpable.

She had been
faced with her own mortality – and worse, the mortality of her children.

As
the parent of a special needs child, I face my son's mortality on a
regular basis.  It is sobering and freeing all at the same time.  I
can't keep my child alive.  Neither can doctors, specialists or
medications.  Only the Lord can do that.

My child's life is not in
my control.  My own life is not in my control either. 

So I can
just relax, enjoy, roll with the punches, living each moment AS
it happens.  The future is completely out of my hands.

We can
enjoy life and have God's awesome peace throughout everything.  Life is
meant to be savored.

One of my best friends says, "Don't forget to
wear your party pants!" 

Each day is a joyous celebration of
life, love and God's goodness.

How has God showed His control in
your life today? 

Oh, how much He must love you then!  Don't
every doubt it!

Alesha

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Finding Me

Wednesday, 14 February 2007

There are things that lie in wait far below the
surface.  In the course of my usual day, these gems go ignored,
untapped and neglected.  Sometimes they are thoughts too deep for casual
conversation, silly whims that remain unvoiced, wild dreams that are
never acknowledged and brilliant observations that may never see the
light of day.

I want to find
an outlet for these things – they are at the very core of my being. 
They need to be explored, understood, shared and perhaps sorted and
whisked away.  If I never draw them out, I will never know.

So, here's to finding me…underneath the
everyday, mundane, exhausting, often joyous and miraculous existence
that my Creator has determined.
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tag along, I will be humbly delighted. 

Alesha