Wheeeeeee Wednesday

Be forwarned – my thoughts take great leaps between each paragragh; but I didn't use "bullets" for my post, because I just hate it when that bullet formatting takes my indention button hostage. 

So, hang on…like a ride in the Tardis…here we go!

I figured out how to sync 2 iPods to the same computer – with different songs on each one!  Cool!

We have had lots of rain this week, and we re-e-e-eally needed it here.

It was such a blessing to have the McBride and Pitt family with us at church on Sunday!  We got to hear great bluegrass-style music.  They did a rendition of "For Unto Us A Child Is Born" from Handel's Messiah that had me in tears.  They used the guitar and fiddle (and maybe the mandolin?  I can't remember), and it was just beautiful. 

Bro. McBride's preaching was spirit-filled and perfectly-timed, as usual.  His Sunday morning sermon, "Does It Really Matter If I'm Faithful?" truly blessed my heart, and helped me to move forward personally, especially considering my "serious thoughts" from last Thursday.

Isaac has slept through the last 3 nights.  It has been wonderful, and I am so grateful!

I got my hair cut last week and I am loving it!

I found some really cool verses yesterday.

Paul was teaching the church of Corinth how to handle a brother who was in sin, but who has now repented and turned away from that sin after the church disciplined him.  I love the tone of these verses. 

II Corinthians 2:7-8 – "So that contrariwise ye ought rather to forgive him, and comfort him, lest perhaps such a one should be swallowed up with overmuch sorrow.  Wherefore I beseech you that ye would confirm your love toward him."

That really helps me.  If someone has taken the proper steps to abandon their sin, we must reach out to them in love and forgiveness!  It is not an easy thing to do, but it is so important, if they are to be reconciled back into fellowship.

Our truck broke down again yesterday – while Doug and Isaac were 2 hours away at therapy.  Praise the Lord that our friend Howard is a mechanic, and was able to talk Doug through some steps to get it running again.  He has to do something under the hood with the pliers to make it go, but that's ok because we have to do something under the hood in the fuse box to make the air conditioner run, too!!!  So we might as well do both things at once, right?  LOL!  (Might as well laugh about it, right?) 😉

I am working on two mother's bracelets right now – one in silver and one in gold.  I cannot wait to see how they turn out! 

My phone is getting easier to work with…so I guess it is training me well.  My very favorite app is mobislenotes.  I have a to-do list for myself and one for Ike's caregiver.  I prepare hers each morning, and then email it to her computer.  She just pops open her laptop when she gets here, checks her email and reads her list. 🙂 🙂 :)  You know how I feel about lists, so of course, this makes me very happy!

Two widgets that bring me great joy are the clock and the weather.  I have them set so that I know the time and weather of all the places around the world where my friends and family live!  England, Japan, Idaho, Tennessee, California.  It makes it fun for me to see their weather, especially! 🙂

Oh — and here's a random picture for Dani:

Carrotcrazies

(my husband thought these were absolutely hysterical, and insisted on taking a picture!  now I'm glad he did!)

Well, I think that's it for me.  I can't think of anything else that would be remotely interesting to you.  I mean, I could talk about the mold and mildew that is trying to take over my bathroom, but really…who wants to hear me complain about jalousie windows again???

😉

Enjoy your day — it is a gift from God.

Alesha

 

Seriously Thoughtful Thursday

Thank you for the encouraging comments on my last blog.  (Even from those of you who did not care for my chosen "vegetable" of olives – Cousin Joy!) 😉

I guess the bottom line of all my "deep thoughts" would be that I am tired of losing friends:

*Losing friends to death

*Losing friends to distance

*Losing friends to neglect

*Losing friends to sin

It just gets discouraging when it seems to come in "batches".

[Welcome to my very small pity party.  You know, I've invited y'all to those before.  They are usually short-lived, and I don't expect you to participate at all, unless you so desire.]

I remember when I was 5 years old, I lost my very first very best friend.  One day she was at school, and the next she wasn't.  Her family moved from the area, and I never saw or heard from her again.

(Although, realistically, we were 5 – it's not like we could have corresponded.  We could barely write our names!)

Yet, some (nearly – not quite, but neary) 40 years later, I remember that pain like it was yesterday.  That feeling of my heart shattering into a million pieces, and feeling that it would never be mended.

Thankfully, as I can well remember too, my heart was quickly mended.  The pain did not last, and I made new friends.

However, I will tell you, even now, when I realize that a friendship is indeed "over", that pain – once I allow myself to acknowlege it – is almost as staggering as it was on the day I first experienced it.

This past year, I lost my friend, Gail, to death.  I lost other friends in the past 2 years to distance, because we moved away.  I lost others to neglect, due to my focus on my health and on Isaac, I just didn't have the energy to keep up the correspondence.  Others I have lost to sin.  They have walked away from God (as far as I can ascertain); and have turned their backs on seemingly everything we had in common.

Every one of those losses just makes me sad.

True to form, though, I push the pain away, bury it deeply, and try not to "feel" it.  I try to mentally acknowledge it without emotionally experiencing it.  Grief is messy, and inconvenient, and, most often, poorly timed.

So, as January is usually a reflective month for me (what with all the thoughts of a new year and the end of the holidays and the lack of sunshine and the cold temperatures), it has all come pouring over me that past few weeks. 

I have felt sad…and MAD…and sorrowful…and remorseful…and disappointed…and regretful about my lost friendships of the past year.

I really would like to act the same way I did at age 5 when I lost my friend, Renee.  I remember running away from my mom, down the school sidewalk with tears flowing, and bellowing my anguish for all the world to hear.

Come to think of it, that's probably why I felt so much better so quickly.

I know I can cry.  I've done my share of that the past 7 months, after losing Gail.  I just don't know what to do with the anger.  The obvious answer is forgiveness.  Forgive myself for not trying harder, forgive my friends for…well, there it is.  They have hurt me, but they have hurt God more, I know, by leaving His precepts and commandments and following their own lusts and desires.

It's hard for me to forgive them for that.  I know Jesus already forgave their sins, just like He forgave mine when He died on Calvary.  I'm afraid my journey to forgiveness will take a bit longer, although it could, in no way, be more painful than was His.

The only thing I know to do is to go to the Scripture, and then try to live out what the Lord gives me there.  Hmmm…I wonder how many times I will "get" to live out these verses in my lifetime.  I would have told you that I had already learned this lesson on forgiveness…

…but aparently not. 😉

So, class, let's look at our verses, and begin our study again:

Luke 17:3-4 – Take heed to yourselves: If thy brother trespass against thee, rebuke him; and if he repent, forgive him.
 And if he trespass against thee seven times in a day, and seven times in a day turn again to thee, saying, I repent; thou shalt forgive him.

Ephesians 4:31-32 – Let all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and clamour, and evil speaking, be put away from you, with all malice:
And be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ's sake hath forgiven you.

Yep, I think that will give me quite enough "homework" for a few days.  There is so much to meditate on in those verses!

Thanks for listening to my rambling, sober thoughts.  Just working them out so they make sense to you has helped them to make sense to me.  My friend, Kathy, always used to say, "I'm just processing out loud here!"  I guess that's what I'm doing too.

On a final note, I pray that those friends who were lost to neglect can find it in their hearts to want to forgive me.  There's always two sides to every coin, isn't there?

And, so this post does not bring us all to the depths of despair with its negativity, I want to say just how thankful I am for the new friends I am making here.  It seems to take longer these days to make a new friend.  I think we are more cautious and selective as we get older. 

I am treading lightly in this area, but the Lord is faithfully bringing Christian sisters into my life that are being a blessing to me.  Thank you, Lord, for Your mercy in giving me another chance to be a good friend.  May I walk worthy of that gift.

Blessings,

Alesha

 

Yes…and No

Yes – I know I need to blog.

No – we are not still sick.  Ike and I are recovering nicely.

Yes – I know many of you have snow right now.

No – I do not want snow here, thankyouverymuch!

Yes – Karen got it right – I am putting all of my music onto the computer.

No – I am not finished yet.  Ugh!

Yes – I'm having tater tots for lunch.  They're organic and so is the ketchup!  So HA – carb, schmarb!

No – We have not given up on our Hallelujah Diet…I just wanted something hot.  It's hard to eat salad for lunch when I'm wearing knee socks.

Yes – I am enjoying my new phone…A Droid Incredible.

No – I am still not smarter than the phone…it has me beat by a long shot!!!

Yes – I am going to see Cirque du Soleil® — La Nouba on Friday, and I am totally psyched!

No – Isaac is not going.  I am going on a date with my hubby! (with my brother, his wife, her parents and my parents)  hahaha… 😉

Yes – I've had lots of blog subjects on my mind lately…some serious…well, ok, mostly serious. 

However, I do feel the need to work through things before I share about them here. I like to share my thoughts with my blog readers, even the somber thoughts; but I want to make sure I always share them in the right way.  I don't want you to come to my blog and be discouraged, or leave feeling hopeless.  I would be doing you a disservice if either of those things happened. 

I don't mind if you come to read my blog and leave feeling convicted or angry or in disagreement with me. That means I have caused you to think seriously about a subject, and that is a great compliment to a writer.  

I just want to be sure to lead you to a conclusion of some kind:  to never read my blog again, to disagree with me completely, to agree with me wholeheartedly, to feel that I should never cover that subject again…something!

I have no plan to change my blog format or anything of that nature.  I've just been thinking "heavy" thoughts, and should I choose to share them, I want to be sure I say exactly what I think, no more and no less.

More importantly, though, I only want to say here exactly what the Lord would have me say.  So…I wait until I'm sure.

Yes – I do feel better having shared that.

No – I'm not depressed.

Yes – I DID finish copying my cds while I blogged!!!  OH, YEAH!!!

No – I did not eat my meal with absolutely no vegetables.  I had OLIVES!!!  That totally counts!!!

😉

Thanks for reading,

Alesha



Thankful on Tuesday

I looked at the calendar and was astonished!

No, it's not the numbers 2-0-1-1 on the top that amazed me, although I still don't know how a year could have passed in the blink of an eye.

What surprised me was the number of weeks that I have been sick.  Tomorrow will be the end of the 5th week that I have been sick with a cold and/or the flu!

That is astonishing!

I did have about 3 days in the middle of one of those weeks that I felt well enough to go out to lunch with Doug.  Remember, I included that picture of the yummy food on our table

(Mmmm…I could go for a bowl of that soup right about now!)

It has been a long run for me.  I am tired of being sick.  Just yesterday, I started to feel almost "human" again.  The coughing is abating and my sinuses are clearing.

So, I am thankful today on Tuesday that I am feeling better, and will be, Lord willing, leaving the house today for some time out!

However, Isaac has only been sick since the Thursday before Christmas, and he is still doing poorly.  Yesterday, he shocked me by having not one, but TWO, short grand mal seizures first thing in the morning!

Ugh!

He has also been running a low-grade temp for the past 2 days.  So it's back to the doctor for him today. 

Yeah, that's why I'm getting out of the house today – a trip to the doctor for Isaac.

But, I will take it and be thankful that I'm able to join them for the trip.

(I also have a Michael's gift card burning a hole in my pocket, so I just might get in a little shopping as well!)

;o)

Alesha

A Weak Wednesday

Well, my blog for Sunday didn't happen…

And managing my Monday?  Ha!  I laugh!

My Tuesday was thankful, but it didn't get blogged about…

and Wednesday…well, it's almost over, too, but I thought I would squeeze in a small update.

 

Last Thursday, Isaac came down with what the doctor is 98% sure was the flu.  By Friday, I was sick with it, too.  We are still recovering – barely.

We did take Ike to the doctor, today. (I use "we" quite liberally, here – it was actually Doug who left work early and took him.)  His lungs are clear – praise be to the LORD!  The other things we were concerned about were the increased seizures, and that fact that on Monday and Tuesday, he slept 12 and 14 hours, respectively.

Y'all know Isaac doesn't sleep well.  So when this phenomenon happened 2 nights in a row, we got very concerned.  The doctor thinks it's all due to the flu.  Increased seizure activity due to sickness is normal, and the doctor thinks that Isaac is just sleeping so much because the flu wears a person out so much.  (And yes, I can attest to that!)

So, we are mending.  Resting.  Coughing.  Sleeping.  And counting our blessings that Doug has 2 days off at the end of this week to be here at home with us. 🙂

That's it for us.  I really hope that your Christmas was completely different from ours!!!

Christmastreeblur

(My only feeble attempt to take a Christmas tree picture this year.  Remember I said I liked blurry Christmas light pictures? It's a good thing, huh?)

😉

Alesha